Astrolore’s Weekly Astrology Weather: August 21, 2017 through August 27, 2017


“We use astrology most constructively and creatively when we gain from it a sense of what is possible for us at the highest levels of our potentialities. Seeing that, the challenges is then to keep our eyes open to life itself, to be able to respond appropriately when some event or change of circumstances…” ~ Dane Rudhyar “Astrological Aspects – a Process Oriented Approach” 1980



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Monday, August 21, 2017:

During the course of Monday both the Leo Sun and Moon form flowing trine aspects to unpredictable Uranus. This allows for a powerful flow of excitement and intensity. Expect the unexpected.

Here we go! The Full Solar Eclipse we have waited for is finally here! In this eclipse we see the reflection of the US leadership crisis playing out in the cosmos! What does it portend? I’m not going to try to make a determination but I certainly am watching the drama play out in the culture and the world around us. The eclipse is exact at 2:30 PM EDT, if at all possible spend this time in meditation.

Watch it in your own life as well… do not allow fear or negative expectations to get in the way. Remember that every crisis brings with it a powerful opportunity. Open your heart for new possibilities. Remember that a Solar Eclipse is a New Moon. Do your New Moon ritual and take it to a very deep level. For those of you who do not know or remember the New Moon Ritual I will post it later this afternoon.The seed you plant now will be with you over time. What house holds 29° Leo in your personal chart? What seed can you plant that will support growth in this area of your life? Watch the world around you, plant a seed for profound personal growth, and offer kindness too those who live in fear.

At 4:25 PM EDT the moon enters Virgo, settling our anxiety as we are able to see the potential within any crisis or challenge.

The Leo Moon is VOC* (think of it as being adrift, without focus or connection) from 2:30 PM EDT until she enters Virgo at 4:25 PM EDT.

Remember, when the Moon is VOC* there will be no result from anything that is begun. This is neutral; not good, not bad, it simply suggests that whatever occurs will not have significant future impact.



Tuesday, August 22, 2017:

Tuesday begins with a sweet trine aspect between impulsive Mars and mature stable Saturn.This is a great day to get back on whatever horse has thrown you over the last week or two. The cycle between aggressive Mars and cautious Saturn began in late August 2016 when you may have begun a process of reigning in your more aggressive nature. Whatever you began at that time is now moving easily toward accomplishment.

At 6:20 PM EDT the all-powerful Sun enters productive analytical Virgo! The shift from Leo to Virgo can be extremely calming. You will find that you are ready to head home from the beach and get back to school or work. You feel called to put effort into reaching for your potential in all areas of your life. Focus on getting caught up on details from the past so that you can work with a clean slate when Mercury turns direct on September 5th.

Over the next few weeks your heart can setting into efficient routines that support your life and your dreams. We can only hope that the cultural circumstances will settle as well.

Eclipse by Vugarte



Wednesday, August 23, 2017:

Wednesday continues the theme from Tuesday of calming and settling the system through humility and dedication. It is obvious that there is much work to do. On the other side of Monday’s Eclipse there is hope and understanding of the potential that the portal of the Eclipse has opened before us.

You know what needs to be done in your own life to eradicate all racism and hatred in your own heart. On Wednesday the Virgo Moon first forms a square to Saturn insisting we look at reality, then a sextile to Venus giving us hope, and finally an opposition to Chiron showing us the sickness within us that we much uproot. All of us who grew up in the US must face and work deeply with this issue. Now is the time to make it a priority if you haven’t already.

At 9:04 PM EDT the Moon enters Libra. Over the next few days it is your job to work toward the creation of harmony and cooperation In your own heart and by extension into your community, the culture, the world, and the Universe.

The Virgo Moon is VOC* (think of it as being adrift, without focus or connection)from 4:02 PM EDT EDT until she enters Libra at 9:04 PM EDT.

Remember, when the Moon is VOC* there will be no result from anything that is begun. This is neutral; not good, not bad, it simply suggests that whatever occurs will not have significant future impact.



Thursday, August 24, 2017:

With the Moon in Libra on Thursday you probably feel social and in the mood for time with your best friend or intimate partner. Remember that the Moon sets the emotional tone as it moves through the zodiac. Here in Libra you will want to make significant connections with others. Your environment is also important. Bring flowers home this evening to surprise and delight your partner or to simply bring that beauty into your own life.

At 3:01 PM EDT charming Venus forms a challenging difficult square aspect to unconventional Uranus. This may well upset the apple-cart of the lovely harmonious Libra Moon. In early June a cycle began between these two planets. This is a cycle of bringing something unusual or unexpected to your ability to create relationship or your ability create money and resources. Whatever began then, you are now asked to step up to the plate and take action, to push this issue forward. Make a decision, take action, step forward in your life.



Friday, August 25, 2017:

Did you try unsuccessfully to set something in motion or take direct action in your life in early April? Did that project stall leaving you disappointed, feeling like you had missed the opportunity? Saturn, the planet of structure, hard work, and responsibility turned retrograde on April 6, 2017. What has been on hold in your life since? At 8:08 AM EDT Saturn stations direct at 21° Sagittarius. We now have the green light for any serious projects or activities. This may involve business and work but do not underestimate the duty and responsibilities involved in the more personal areas of our lives as well. It is time to resume forward motion on serious endeavors.

Friday is a great day for New Beginnings. We are in the Waxing Phase of the Moon, Saturn shifts and the lovely Libra moon joins with expansive Jupiter and forms aspects of possibility and excitement to both hard-working Saturn and action-taking Mars. You are ready to step forward into new responsibilities, new decisions, new efforts, and new self-determination and self-respect!



Saturday, August 26, 2017:

Saturday is astrologically a complex day. While you slept on Friday night several important shifts occurred. Most significantly, Venus who has been sweetly but cautiously moving through inward Cancer entered the exciting playful land of Leo where she will remain until September 19th. Over the next few weeks you will express your values with expressive generosity. It will be easier than usual for you to initiate whatever relationship dynamics you seek to create.

Also, the emotional environment has shifted since Friday as the Moon left cooperative graceful Libra behind to enter deeply intense Scorpio. Look deeply and respond to what you see below the surface of what is presented to you.

At 4:42 PM EDT retrograde Mercury joins with the analytical Virgo Sun. Pay attention to how others perceive your opinions and the words you use to share them. If others do not see your sincerity you will be best served by waiting until Mercury turns direct (September 5th) to say what must be said.

The Libra Moon is VOC* (think of it as being adrift, without focus or connection)From 1:39AM EDT until she enters Scorpio at 4:53 AM EDT.

Remember, when the Moon is VOC* there will be no result from anything that is begun. This is neutral; not good, not bad, it simply suggests that whatever occurs will not have significant future impact.

Solar Eclipse by Howard Russell Butler



Sunday, August 27, 2017:

The big news on Sunday is a supportive sextile aspect between enthusiastic Jupiter and responsible Saturn at 8:15 AM EDT. There is the sense of confidence, you know that you have what it takes to bring your beliefs and goals into alignment. There is a shift as you accept a new direction presented that will help you create and develop your beliefs into reality.

The aspects that the deeply introspective Scorpio Moon makes throughout the day are supportive and exciting. At 2:09 PM EDT the Moon forms a sextile aspect to transcendent Pluto bringing the depth of your understanding to a place of empowering your most significant goals.




* In these weekly reports, I am exploring the major aspects formed by transit between the planets. I do not consider every aspect that the Moon makes each day as they can be numerous and are often fleeting moods. I will consider the final major aspect formed by the Moon prior to its VOC* time, as that aspect holds its influence throughout the VOC*.

The aspects under consideration: conjunctions, textiles, squares, trines, and oppositions.
The planets I work with: Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto.


Understanding Love: Venus retrograde from March 4 – April 15

The maid stood upon the bank as the red ship sailed away from Novgorod

The maid stood upon the bank as the red ship sailed away from Novgorod

Tracy Lee Miller of Sisterhood of Hearth & Home and Mother Moon Astrology

Tracy has been a student of Astrolore for many years! 🙂


The planet Venus relates to issues of love, money, and beauty. Venus is Retrograde for six weeks, beginning on March 4th and continuing until April 15, 2017. A retrograde planet ”appears” to be going backwards in the heavens.

During this time you are called to go inward and gain clarity on what you most deeply value. The retrograde period is not a time to take action, rather a time to clean up past issues in love relationships, finances, and your physical environment.  

Additionally, consider Venus retrograde as a time to determine what it will take to improve how you feel about yourself!

Consider your self-care routines and what brings you pleasure. Think about a new self image, hairstyle or wardrobe change. Just think about those changes for now, you can act on them after April 15th.

In the meantime, pamper yourself, do a spa day at home, take a walk in nature. Walking in nature naturally offers clear introspection – devoid of real world distractions.

Evaluate what is working in love and finance, and in the beauty you surround yourself with/ your environment.

Make no big decisions during this six-week period of time; reassess, ponder, go inward, take notes, create a vision board, sit in silence.

Venus may be asking you to:

  • *Consider what internal values are most important to you
  • *Consider what things you value most deeply
  • *Consider whom do you value
  • *Consider: are you being valued the way you need to be valued
  • *Consider: are you being paid/ compensated in the way that you deserve
  • *Consider as Venus relates to health: are you taking care of yourself in the best way possible


The time to make decisions around love, money, romance, relationships, health, and beauty will come following the retrograde.

If you want to purchase art, decorative items, or make changes in your environment, if you want to implement beautification projects or take your relationships to a deeper level, do these things after April 15th.

The retrograde period may bring with it bumps in the road. Issues may surface in existing relationships in order to be reevaluated and healed. Hold steady. Learn patience.

A new love may come, seemingly out of nowhere; if so, it may not be of a lasting nature. As the retrograde period comes to an end, that relationship may fade to grey.


During this period of evaluating your relationships there may be a tendency toward infidelity, of the “grass is greener” variety. This too shall pass. Lovers from your past may also show up once again. Old karmic connections resurface. Lost items may be found. There is a connection to the past while a planet is in retrograde motion.

During this time your relationships may be strengthened, as there is the potential to get to the heart of the issues that bubble to the surface to be healed. This healing can open your heart to Greater Love and more balance within your relationships.

Illustration from "The Russian Story Book" by Frank C. Papé, 1916

Illustration from “The Russian Story Book” by Frank C. Papé, 1916

Issues concerning or challenging your value system, code of ethics, and/or your finances may present themselves to be assessed and perhaps overhauled.

Venus Retrograde puts all the issues regarding your deepest values on a platter and places it right in front of you!

Try not to consider any of this as a negative. Venus Retrograde is here to assist you in creating a life that works, that has your highest good in mind, and brings you to a place of living a life you value, surrounded by beauty in your home, with love and abundance flowing all around you.

This is not great time to begin any new artistic endeavors though it can be a good time to plan and play with new ideas, just not necessarily launching them.


For myself, I see that my style of art and creation is changing and morphing into new forms. I am evaluating the materials I work with and will be using this period to discard items that I no longer need or use and contemplating what comes next with sketches and notes.

This will be my idea stage, without action. Being a Certified Feng Shui Consultant I will utilize this period by considering how I want my surroundings to be, clearing clutter, planning and envisioning how I want my home to feel in six weeks when Spring arrives. Action will be taken after April 15th.

As a Certified Holistic Health Coach, Venus is speaking to me to go inward even more, to plan an exercise routine, (just got a FitBit for accountability!) a consistent meditation practice, and to rid my diet of food that does not serve me (and the associated weight!)  

My plan is that by April 15th, I will be ready to roll forward with all of these great changes.

Having been in a committed relationship for 24 years, I am aware and ready for certain sticky issues to surface once again for us to evaluate how we want to move forward. We will use conscious and non-violent communication to navigate rough seas should we encounter them.

Financially, I am definitely feeling the pull of deep introspection in the creation of incomes streams. Discarding the old and growing a new business. Again, this is the idea stage, reassessing and getting clear; ready to launch after April 15th when Venus goes direct.

I am also evaluating friendships. Those that are no longer symbiotic will be evaluated and some will be released.

'Fairy Islands' 1916 by Ida Rentoul Outhwaite

‘Fairy Islands’ 1916 by Ida Rentoul Outhwaite


It will be interesting to see where this leads my own life and all of yours as well! This is a wonderful opportunity presented by the planet of love, beauty and abundance.

When we look back at this six-week period we will be amazed, enlightened, stronger, clear and ready for action. You will know what it was all about! It’s all good, and as I always say: “Clear Space Make Room for Joy” you’ll be glad you did.



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Astrolore’s Weekly Astrology Weather: August 8, 2016 through August 14, 2016

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Dame Ellen Terry ('Choosing') by George Frederic Watts via Wiki Commons

Dame Ellen Terry (‘Choosing’) by George Frederic Watts via Wiki Commons

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Monday, August 8, 2016:

I just love the looks of this Monday morning. With the Moon in Libra and the Sun in Leo, this is a delightful combination! As much attention and adoration as the Leo Sun can ask for, the Libra Moon willingly gives. These two support each other delightfully with playfulness and romance.

At 1:42 PM EDT, the Libra Moon opposes Uranus throwing a wild card into the mix. Depending on your own sensibilities and astrological makeup, this is the day of grand excitement or profound anxiety. Unexpected news and unusual surprises could come to light.

* It is also my birthday! Happy Birthday dear Astrolore!*

The Moon is VOC* from 1:42 PM EDT until she enters Scorpio in the early hours of Tuesday morning. Remember, there will be no result from anything that is begun during a VOC* Moon. This is neutral, not good, not bad, it simply suggests that whatever occurs will not have any significant impact.



Tuesday, August 9, 2016:

On Tuesday, we head into deeper waters with the Moon in Scorpio encouraging us to look under the surface and hide from nothing. Yes, Scorpio has a bad rap, but we must question that and ask ourselves: where would we be without the deep introspection Scorpio calls for?

Anytime Scorpio speaks to us, we need to remember the importance of deep internal exploration. If we choose not to look deeply into our internal processes, we live with anxiety; if we look too deeply, we live with depression. Finding the balance between these two extremes is crucial.

On Tuesday, the intense Scorpio Moon makes lovely aspects to both Venus and Neptune. We are deeply sensitive, compassionate, and aware of the needs of others. This encourages us to meet introspection with an open heart and explore our inner depths through love and sexuality, or creativity and art.



Abstract Sea by Emilia Bayer via Wiki Commons

Abstract Sea by Emilia Bayer via Wiki Commons

Wednesday, August 10, 2016:

Wednesday begins with a continuation of the introspection and sensitivity that we experienced on Tuesday. At 2:21 PM EDT, we come to the First Quarter Square of the Lunar Cycle. Whatever seed you planted for your New Moon ritual on August 2nd, now requires direct and concrete action.

Considering the intensity inherent in the two fixed signs involved (Moon in Scorpio, Sun in Leo) we must understand the requirement is in trusting our most private internal truth to outwardly expression. Who do you trust to see your inner life?

At 7:24 PM EDT, Mercury forms a free-flowing trine aspect to Pluto. Our words hold powerful transformative possibilities.

We are still in the waxing phase of the Moon; consider that you are building something to sustain the future. Express what needs to be expressed, do not hold back.  Allow yourself to experience the power of vulnerability.



Thursday, August 11, 2016:

In the wee hours of the morning (1:22 AM EDT), the Scorpio Moon forms a sextile to Jupiter. Our dreams may be powerful and expansive but by the time we wake up the day moves at a slow pace until she enters Sagittarius at 1:24 PM EDT.

At this point, the energy shifts into high gear as our deep feelings come out of contemplation and into expansive awareness of the bigger picture. At 9:05 PM EDT, the Moon conjunct Mars making it difficult to settle down to an early night’s sleep. Don’t even try. I know it’s a Thursday night but this is a delightful evening to go out dancing. That’s my recommendation, pure and simple: Dance… Dance… Dance

If you don’t want to go out, that’s fine! Turn your living room or even your kitchen into a dance floor!

The Moon is VOC* from 1:22 AM EDT until she enters Sagittarius at 1:24 PM EDT. Remember, there will be no result from anything that is begun during a VOC* Moon. This is neutral, not good, not bad, it simply suggests that whatever occurs will not have any significant impact.



Friday, August 12, 2016:

I do hope you enjoyed the pleasures of Thursday night! I hope you went dancing just as I recommended,

Unfortunately, with the Moon conjunct Saturn at 8:52 AM EDT you may not feel so great on Friday morning. Perhaps, you didn’t get enough sleep or are experiencing other repercussions from so much fun. What are you learning that will support you in future late night adventures? If the ‘fun/ pleasure’ is truly important, you can learn to accept the consequences and/or take measures that will mitigate those consequences. If it is not important, you go home and to bed early! It is not rocket science. Learn from your mis-steps and you will be delighted to have had them.

Several hours later, at 11:39 AM EDT, the Moon squares Neptune reminding us of the ongoing square between Saturn and Neptune and it’s power of disruption.

The final of three exact ‘hits’ of this aspect occurs on September 10, 2016. Whatever your experience is of this planetary struggle, you will be reminded of it on Friday. This may show up in your life as issues of compassion vs. selfishness, confusion vs. determination, dreams vs. reality, sensitivity vs. control.

It is easy to see how this is playing out in the political and social arena and on the world stage. Where is it playing out in your personal circumstances? In our personal lives and in the culture, seeking balance and expressing kindness is key.

At 7:59 PM EDT, Jupiter opposes Chiron showing us the importance of acceptance and openhearted compassion. The cycle between Jupiter and Chiron began in 2009. Did your understanding of your inner wound come into view or expand at that time?

Now, in mid-August 2016, you are able to see where that understanding has manifested in your life. Consider any fears and self-judgment you have brought with you from that time. Bring those fears to a mystical space.

When you clearly see your own intolerance, prejudice, and racism. you can begin the hard work of unraveling it. We must look at reality in order to make it better. We cannot fix a problem we cannot face. Yes, we are beginning to see. That is my hope and what I see reflected in this powerful day.

Figures on the Beach at Trouville by Eugene Louis Boudin via Wiki Commons

Figures on the Beach at Trouville by Eugene Louis Boudin via Wiki Commons


Saturday August 13, 2016:

Having been retrograde since March 25th, Saturn stations direct on Saturday at 5:50 AM EDT. Consider what Saturn represents and remember that each planet has a positive side and a more challenging side. Think about Saturn as the heavy hand of reality. Restriction, responsibility, and duty are represented here as well as self-respect, self-determination, solitude, and the ability to build stable structures. When we work well with Saturn, we receive her gifts. As time passes, we learn how to work with these energies more easily and our lives reflect that ease.  When we fight against Saturn, our lives contract and crystallize into structures of limitation and restriction. During the times when Saturn is retrograde, we consider our responsibilities and refrain from taking on new ones.

With Saturn now turning direct, we are ready to look clearly at our circumstances and prepare to build more stable structures and take on responsibilities that will support future growth.

At 10:30 AM EDT, Venus square Saturn suggesting the importance of working with challenges in your personal relationships and in your financial circumstances. The cycle between Saturn and Venus is a cycle of strengthening relationships and personal values. It is the cycle of responsibility and learning through love and/or money. This cycle began in early January. What seed did you plant at that time regarding love or personal value? On June 3rd, you were able to see how far you had come in this regard. Now, it is time to release the expectations you have built in order to prepare for a deepening sense of responsibility toward relationship or money at the end of October.

For now, be clear of the reality of your love life and your bank balance.

The Moon is VOC* from 1:36 PM EDT until she enters Capricorn in the early hours of Sunday morning. Remember, there will be no result from anything that is begun during a VOC* Moon. This is neutral, not good, not bad, it simply suggests that whatever occurs will not have any significant impact.



Sunday, August 14, 2016:

Shortly after midnight, the Moon enters stable Capricorn bringing the seriousness of Saturday along into Sunday. However, very different energy is asking us to look at it. At 1:03 PM EDT, Venus opposes Neptune reminding us of a dream that began on March 20, 2016 (give or take a few days).

Perhaps you began an art project, a meditation practice, or a love affair. Whatever began at that time required that you take action to move it forward in the first few days of June. Now, we are encouraged to look clearly at how far that dream has come and how well the seed has grown. We are able to look at our love and our values within a mystical light.

Venus is reflecting to us the current square between serious Saturn and mystical Neptune. This is not easy.  On the one hand, we are looking at reality and structure (Saturn); on the other hand we are looking at confusion or mysticism (Neptune). How do we work with both sides of this equation in both our romantic love relationships and our relationship with money and resources?

It is important that make the effort to balance reality and intuition. It is important that we allow our lives to not fully make sense at this time. It is important that we bring both poetry and hard work to all that we do. Even as you create structure in your relationship, read poetry together, get lost in music, explore the mystical side of love, and explore the mystical soft side of life. Find balance, release expectations.

* In these weekly reports, I am exploring the major aspects formed by transit between the planets.  I do not consider every aspect that the Moon makes each day as they can be numerous and are often fleeting moods.  I will consider the final major aspect formed by the Moon prior to its VOC* time, as that aspect holds its influence throughout the VOC*.

* The aspects under consideration: conjunctions, textiles, squares, trines, and oppositions.
* The planets I work with: Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto.





A Personal Story; Attempted Assault


Transiting Saturn Square Neptune; Fully Flavored by Mars Retrograde


We all have our stories; the ongoing occurrences that keep us company as we move through our days. Sometimes, these stories lift us up beyond our expectations, other times they seem to kick our legs out from under us, leaving us to question our entire path.

It is up to each one of us, along our individual journey, to find the meaning in the more difficult stories. Sometimes, metaphors are so clear we can hardly miss them; other times we poke around and only with time and effort, do we see the subtle messages.

Bílení prádla Deutsch: B. Bartoš

Bílení prádla
Deutsch: B. Bartoš

Let us consider the ongoing square between Saturn and Neptune (the most significant transit of 2016). Saturn insists that we pay attention to structure, hard work, and the necessity to face reality in our individual lives.

This is quite the challenge to Neptune as she offers us the opportunity to dissolve whatever is in our path through some form of spirituality or escape. These two planets coming together have an awkward alliance and we must pay careful attention to understand the messages and lessons within.

Of course, there are other planetary cycles that are impacting our current circumstances and the main one I want to consider along with the square aspect between Saturn and Neptune is that Mars is still retrograde (about to turn direct 6/29/2016).

Remember Mars? In his retrograde times, he provides us with the necessity to work with issues of aggressive energies such as anger, initiative, courage, and drive. Conversations about toxic masculinity may trigger you, but let me explain.

When I speak of toxic masculinity (I’ll call it TM) I’m not saying that men or masculinity itself is toxic. After all, there is also toxic femininity. We each have both masculinity and femininity in our personal energetic field.

One difference between the two, is that TM tends to leave more blood, destruction, and war in its wake. Also, currently it is Mars that is retrograde, not Venus. When Venus is retrograde, we can talk about the toxic side of femininity.

I struggle with how much of my private life to share with my readers and I’m pushing myself a bit beyond my comfort zone with this story but I do believe there are certain lessons that are universal. I also entertain the thought that I could share more than I do. Perhaps, this is the beginning of a trend!

I have a tiny sundial that I wear around my neck that represents magic in my life (perhaps I should tell that story someday, it is a very happy one).


The Story: Attempted Assault

This story has its share of magic and for that, I am deeply grateful. Any minor change in my day on Wednesday, June 8, 2016 would have ended with very different results. We will not dwell on those. The event itself happened at approximately 8:30 PM EDT.

By sheer magic (luck), I was walking by my front door at the moment when I heard a key enter the lock. When I heard it, I was confused but my immediate assumption was that someone was simply at the wrong door. Then, I saw the dead bolt turn.

I immediately grabbed and held the deadbolt closed still assuming it was an innocent situation and that I must not have locked the door thoroughly.

In my confusion (or naivety) I let go of the lock, making sure it was in the locked position; immediately, the key and deadbolt turned and the door began to open. I slammed my body against the door, managed to push the dead bolt closed again as I hollered “Who’s there?” etc.

There was no response; still in my somewhat confused/naïve state of mind I nearly opened the door to see who was there. Luckily, I heard a tiny voice in my head say ‘look through the peep hole’.

When I looked through the peephole, what I saw was a shock. All I could see was a man’s hand, middle finger raised, thrusting toward the peephole aggressively, repeatedly, and silently. I could feel the rage and frustration in that gesture. He then dropped below the view of the peephole.

My phone was not within reach, I had to pee terribly, and someone with a key to my apartment and nefarious intent was on the other side of my door. At that moment, I was profoundly aware of being on the third floor with no alternate exit other than the one door I was guarding from an intruder.

I waited for what seemed like hours before racing to find my phone, get back to the door to continue holding it closed and call the police.

I have only lived in this apartment since December, I rarely have company, and I have never figured out how to buzz someone in the front door from my apartment. So, in order to let the police in I had to leave my apartment to take the elevator downstairs and unlock the front door. I had no idea if this man was still in the building. I was terrified. The police explored the building and I called the housing authority. At approximately 10:30 PM, a maintenance person from the housing authority arrived to put a new lock on my door. While I waited, I sat with my body against the door thinking that a new lock was going to make everything okay. However, as I talked with the maintenance person they told me that every time a new tenant moves in a new lock is installed.

That came as a shock as the realization hit me that whoever had been on the other side of the door didn’t just have a key to my door but had a master key for the building. I was no safer with this new lock than I have been with the previous one.

For a moment, I was confused and then the question: Why me? Why my apartment? At that moment, a light bulb went off in my head as I recalled a situation from several days earlier that answered the question.

The laundry room in my building is directly across the hall from my apartment. Last week, as I was doing laundry, a man entered the room. Apparently, he had been washing the hallway floors and the janitor’s supply closet is accessed through the laundry room. I exchanged a few sentences with him about washing the floors in the hallway. When that exchange was complete it seemed appropriate for him to leave the room. He didn’t… he stood there… it was awkward so I made a comment intended to fill the silent awkward space.

It was a hot summer day, the dryers were running, and the room was overheated. I said “It is hot in here”; he responded “Isn’t it hot because I’m in here”. Ick.

He proceeded to make a few more equally inappropriate comments about how ‘hot’ he was. At that point, I gathered my laundry, walked across the hall and he watched me as I entered my apartment.

Here was the answer to the question: Why me? Why my apartment?
So there’s this crazy guy out there making inappropriate comments and then trying to get into my apartment? It seems like some sort of a bad movie. I moved here (the first time in 60+ years that I have lived alone) looking to live a quiet reflective life (Sagittarius North Node in the 4th house).

This is the story. I am so tired of this whole tale. There have been so many conversations and meetings and they (the housing authority) did discover (and admit) that a Grand Master Key was accidentally left available to the cleaning contractors!!?

There’s no way to prove who was at my door. I couldn’t see his face in the peephole, in the laundry room I did my best not to look at him, and without cameras in the hall, we have no proof.

At this point, I have a lock on my door that has no master key. They are putting new locks on every door in the building, cameras in all the common spaces, and have offered to move me to another building.

They have also dealt with the cleaning company, letting them know of the inappropriate comments, that the man in question is a suspect in a crime, and have threatened to pull their contract if that man is seen on any property owned by the Housing Authority. Given all of that, I suspect that man has lost his job. Which of course makes me feel less safe and yet I am grateful.

Let’s think about the reflection in this tale of Saturn squaring Neptune along with Mars retrograde.

I think of the rose-colored glasses (Neptune) I have worn my entire life regarding TM (Mars retrograde), as a child it was certainly not safe (Saturn) to point out when inappropriate masculine behavior occurred. We were taught to sweep it under the rug, make excuses, and blame ourselves.

There was always an excuse for inappropriate and even violent masculine behavior; “He was just a child himself”, “He was damaged”, “He didn’t know any better”, or even, “He somehow couldn’t help himself”. No matter how much hurt was caused, his pain always seemed to be the one validated.

Throughout my life, when I have suffered at the expense of that toxicity I was clearly taught to hide those stories, knowing the blame would land on me. Even now, in this circumstance, I watched myself wanting to hide as though it were somehow my fault. Even now that inexplicable guilt lingers.

However, I am finally clear that, without question, the perpetrator of inappropriate masculine behavior (whether it be a man or a woman) is 100% responsible (Saturn) for their actions. Yes, there may be significant other factors. Nevertheless, we each must take full responsibility for our own actions and the results of those actions.

This is a powerful lesson of Mars retrograde. When we stop making excuses for others, we can no longer make excuses for ourselves. We each must look with clear eyes into our own hearts. Neptune has allowed a lack of clarity that Saturn is now demanding.

I certainly cannot deny the wake of damaged relationships I have left behind me over the years. With seven (7) planets in Fire Signs, it is no wonder issues of TM are still dogging me (Fire and Air signs hold masculine energy; Earth and Water signs hold feminine energies).

This situation has forced me to look beneath my comfortable illusions (Neptune) with the sheer weight of its reality (Saturn). It has taken me 60+ years to see my own tendencies of avoidance, denial, and yes, my own brand of TM.

I believe a core lesson here is to look TM square in the eye, name it wherever we see it without apology, and own its presence in our own lives.

Making excuses for TM in others enables us to make excuses for ourselves. Neatly covering it with compassion and veiled kindness (Neptune) (ie: he was so damaged, he couldn’t help it) is not the same as taking full responsibility (Saturn) and doing the hard work of routing it out once and for all.

Remember, masculinity itself is not the problem. It is important to acknowledge and honor the positive side of masculinity; vitality, enthusiasm, passion, assertiveness, action, and will power.

Consider how this is reflected in your our culture (issues in the military, the prison system, police issues, the Republican incumbent), within the cosmos, and in your personal life as well. Where is this playing out in your own life?


In light of where this situation has taken my heart and mind, I am changing the trajectory of my business. I have had such lofty goals and have been working to create online courses and other big projects.

I’ve decided to let go of those overblown projects/ goals.

I simply want to make connection with you, my clients and students. I want to do consultations and I want to teach. One-to-one, you and me; in one powerful enlightening conversation at a time, one person at a time.

Contact me. Let’s do this. Let’s connect, talk, and grow in understanding of our lives and our place in the world. I want to talk with you, share my perspective, and view the goodness within each one of you. Bring your friends on board. Send this to anyone you know who might be interested and schedule your appointment today.

No matter where you are I can work with you on Skype or the telephone. If you are local it will be a delight to sit directly across the table from you. I want to help you uncover the truth of who you are, to look clearly at reality while allowing yourself to dream and grow.

Please set up an appointment for a consultation or contact me for a conversation about becoming a student. I am honored to work with each student and every client.

Thank you for your interest in this story and all the love you send my way. I feel it everyday.

Much love,



June 2016

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